I wish I had more time for everything thats going on, I feel like I'm missing out on parts of my life. Time's just going so fast...

i want to wear your clothes to bed, watch scary movies with you, talk on the phone until sunrise, sneak out to watch the stars with you, play your favorite video game, make you watch chick flicks, kiss you in the rain, go on walks together, laugh until i can't breathe, holds hand, build a fort and have a snowball fight, sit in front of the fire place and cuddle, i want to fall hopelessly in love with you for the rest of my life.

when i was afraid of everything, i was never afraid of loving you

your honestly all i have left to call mine, please dont abandon me, i dont think my heart could take it

why does it seem that everytime i make a commitment, opportunities arise from the graves, i close one door and fifty more open, don't get me wrong; im so happy with what i chosen, but my life choices seem to have the worst timing they could possibly have.

and one more question, why, why why why does it always feel good to do the wrong thing, i hate it

I've been sitting here in bed, writing sentences, adding and deleting, erasing things that aren't just right.
I've tried to explain exactly how you've got me feeling for the past few days, and it's pretty difficult, I feel like what I'm going to to say won't do it justice, I hope you understand.

Something in you has changed, like a flip has been switched, and you've become the ideal person for me when I was becoming full of doubts. You really do know how to keep me on my toes.

Yesterday when we spent hours just messing around in bed kissing for minutes at a time barely coming up for air I felt as if I had died and gone to heaven, It was pure bliss. The passion, I could feelings it coursing through my veins and yours too. I wanted to stay wrapped in your arms and stuck in the moment forever; Like we were the only ones in this beautiful world anymore.

What is it that has gotten into you?
Did you realize something you never quite saw before, I hope so, because it's effect on you has been...*sigh* amazing.

I love when you tell me you love me, everytime the confidence I have in your words grows.
Please don't stop, I like this new you, It's like falling in love all over again, and the feeling is like no other.

sometimes you gotta take a first step
and it feels really good.

so strange!! that blows my mind!
i feel bad....age wouldn't have changed anything
I wanna help but these arn't my grounds anymore

it sure makes being nice a lot easier though

<3

Don't worry, I'm always going to be around, even when I'm not close, I'm thinking of you.

Your always in the back of my head, my little sister, always on my mind.

I love you dearly, please don't forget, I'm always here.



I'm so glad I have people appreciate my efforts,
it may not sound sincere but I do my best for those I love and sometimes it's tough to feel as if what you do goes unseen,
but the little things you do,
they let me know my deeds aren't invisible to all of you.

theres going to be a meteor shower tonight, and i won't be laying next to you
i miss your touch and its been only minutes

I like testing the waters, pushing the envelope and pissing you off.
Theres just something about the risk that makes me want it more and more.
I drive like a raging idiot and I say things purely to provoke people.
Taking these risks makes up for all the time I've spent sitting in background watching the world pass me by, and these risks, they make me feel more alive than I ever have.

I'll never stop.

tooodddayyyyy
was pretty sweet
slipped on a laminated music sheet and thought i broke some metacarpals all up in that shit
got x rays annnndd
i'm just a huge pussy :x!
haha but i knew that already

then went to my bays house and decorated a christmas tree for 7 hours
holy hell i now understand what christmas is like for most families and why parents hate it haha

then i got home and saw a blast from the past via facebook
and i've already thought about why things are the way they are today concerning my friendships
i've come to the conclusion that in the end it nobody's fault
things just happen
people need to come and go sometimes
and i'm always gunna be a one on one person- someone will always feel left out
i've loved all my friends
i think i just have problems setting attention equally
it's an invisible battle, mixed with hormones and other factors
compatibility gets all messed up too
most of the time it was just too much for me

right now i'm happy with my life and i'm pretty sure all of my old bffs are too
i know that I can't single handedly affect all of their lives badly and have it last which is good because
for some reason i had to leave and for some reason i had to get left
no sadness though or regret

those were good years and these are good years and i've always loved life and i'll always love all of em

^^^ love this movie

school was pretty good today :]
julia made me a cute bracelet for christmas
i won a superlative but don't know which one haha

after school i went to joes
his mom's village=holy hellish sweetness
it's huge and adorable and i thoroughly enjoy it

i went through a cracking nutshell 101 lesson and failed

went to go rent the ugly truth, got candy and subs
made two adorable white fluffy puppies go berserk

and
i love my baby

don't try so hard; people like you better when your not trying to reinvent yourself into that image you've convinced yourself everyone will like better, i like you better the old way

i know you read this often, its hard to decide whether its a good thing or not. i tend to make things a lot nicer when i know you'll read them and possibly see me a few hours later, which could result in a not so pleasant experience. i try to be honest on here, and for the most part i am, but i feel like i'm not being honest enough because i'm putting your feelings first over mine.

so i'm sorry